The last couple of days I’ve been really thinking about ‘how I want to show up.’ It came up in a recent podcast I was listening to and it stuck with me.
How do I want to show up? Instead of focusing on some big, bad, over the top dilemma, I took a detour. ‘Showing up’ doesn’t just pertain to big issues; on the contrary, apply the concept to your daily every day life. It’s about waking up every morning and choosing how you want your day to go; not as a creator of your day, but more as how you will respond to what happens to you on your day to day.
We all have an option as to how we ‘show up.’ I think about that a lot. I think about it on the spot when I decide to curse the person that cuts in front of me or takes my parking spot at Sunset Place (yeah, you guy), or if something doesn’t go according to plan. I’m fuming.
Then, when I’m not limbic, I stop. I say, ‘ok, do I really want to be an asshole and act this way or do I want to see things in a different way?’ I know that choosing to curb my reaction and choose a different outlook will make a difference in how the rest of my day will go. I’ve seen it. It’s not just talk.
So I ask myself, ‘how do I want to show up?’ In general and in a perfect world, I would like to show up, first and foremost, as patient. Patience is a hard virtue; don’t ask the monks though, ha! In all seriousness, for me, patience is something I have to consistently work on, and my kids are the teachers when it comes to that one. I’m so quick to get impatient and expect things to be done to my liking at an instant- a very unrealistic feat (and unfair concept), and I have to make the conscious effort to slow down and realize that it is up to me to approach things differently.
How do I do that, then?
I do that by stopping myself and asking myself that question out loud to myself and saying, ‘okay, how do you want to show up today, Kathy?’ I want to show up more aware, more patient, more understanding and not so quick to judge. I also want to acknowledge that I probably won’t get it right the first few times ( or ten), but the point is I am going to hold myself accountable and say, ‘did I do everything I could do today to show up how I wanted?’ It’s not always going to be easy, but at least I’m trying.
I like to try to add dimensions or layers to these outfit blog posts. I like to share how I feel, what I’m going through, what Im feeling, in hopes that one of you understands or can relate. I hope that’s the case. I’m thankful for each and every one of you who read my posts, DM me, and take my words to heart. That’s why I show up.